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Post by Salamai von Hellan ♥ on May 9, 2007 22:36:03 GMT -5
Salamai picked at her food. She was in no mood to eat. She picked up her untouched spoon and looked at her reflection. No longer was her hair blond and pink, but black. Just plain black. She dropped the spoon and slumped in her booth and just listened to the happy couples sitting around. She should have been thinking of Chase, but she couldn't get Anthony off her mind. She knew he was at least a little mad at her, and she didn't know what she could do to make things better.
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Post by Anthony Jameson on May 9, 2007 23:12:37 GMT -5
Anthony had been wondering through the town. He was bored and had nothing to do. He wondered about what happened the other day with Salamai. He was kind of feeling bad for leaving like that, but he couldn’t think of anything else. The good he didn’t catch a cold walking in the rain that night. Feeling his stomach empty he looked at it a moment and smiled thinking that he should go for something to eat, he though of going to the café. Walking to the café he sat on one of the tables not noticing that there was someone already seated there. He called for the waiter and looked away thinking of what would be good to order. Looking in front of him, he couldn’t believe who was there. It was impossible, not that impossible, but he wasn’t sure if it was a good thing to see her. It was Salamai he could feel his skin going from normal skin color to total white. He was pale. He was in shock he just looked at her no word coming out of his mouth. His heart started beating fast. He wasn’t sure of what to do, should he leave or stay? He didn’t wanted to be rude or anything, but he wasn’t sure if he was ready to confront her yet.
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Post by Salamai von Hellan ♥ on May 10, 2007 7:10:55 GMT -5
[glow=green,2,300]Salamai payed no attention to the person who sat down in front of her. This cafe was oddly packed with people and she would be surprised if there was an empty table. She pushed her almost untouched plate to the side and lit a cigarette. She looked up to see who exactly it was who sat down beside her and saw Anthony. Her heart skipped a beat and her hands became a little shaky. She tugged at her black tank top nervously and took off her black trench coat.
Not only was she nervous about the other night, she was nervous about what he would think about her new "style". Sure she was rather ill with everyone, but she didn't know if she could act that way toward Anthony. But she knew she couldn't act all soft just for one person. She needed to toughen up so she wouldn't get hurt over anything.
"Hello Anthony."she said shortly and looked at him blankly.[/glow]
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Post by Anthony Jameson on May 10, 2007 22:28:57 GMT -5
Anthony looked at her. He was really nervous and didn’t really notice her new look. His couldn’t feel anything. His mind was blank. He didn’t know what to feel. He couldn’t really be mad at her; it would just be unfair. Hearing her talk to him kind of gave him a relief and gave her a slight smile. He couldn’t hide the tension that he felt in presence of Salamai. Ordering some food he smiled at the girl that took his order. Looking at the girl walk away he moved to look at Salamai again almost forgetting that she was actually there. “Oh um hello” he said looking at the table. He couldn’t really look at her eyes, at least not at that moment.
Raising his head he looked at people walking by the café. “How is it going?” he asked her forcing a smile on his face. “Have you seen Chase? I haven’t really see him in a while and I really want to talk to him.”
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Post by Salamai von Hellan ♥ on May 10, 2007 22:39:26 GMT -5
Salamai chewed at her lower lips annoyed. She was pretty much sort of bummed out because Anthony seemed to barely notice she was there. But then again, she was part of the reason Anthony probably didn't even want to speak to her. She took a drag on the cigarette, leaving a black lip print on it. "I haven't seen Chase since I ran into your friend, Helena..."she said to him. When she said Helena's name, she used an icy tone.
What in the world was she supposed to say to Anthony now? She wasn't about to force him to get in a conversation. She inhaled the bitter smoke and blew the smoke toward the table that was to their right.
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Post by Anthony Jameson on May 10, 2007 23:00:36 GMT -5
Anthony looked at Salamai trying to pay attention to what she was saying. He knew that everything was going to change, but he didn’t want everything to change. If he could change what happened the other day he might as well change it even though it was one of his best days ever. Hearing the name of Helena he was kind of surprised “Oh you saw Helena. I didn’t know you talked to her” he said throwing her cigarette away “You have to stop smoking” he said giving her a smile. He tried his best for things not to change, but he wasn’t sure if it was actually going to work “Oh well Helena is really cool. Kind of annoying, but cool.” He said as the girl brought him his food. He thanked her for the food and gave her a smiled looking at the plate full of food. He wasn’t that hungry anymore.
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Post by Salamai von Hellan ♥ on May 10, 2007 23:14:44 GMT -5
"Unfortunatly..."Salamai mumbled at the mention of Helena. She could feel fury form inside when Anthony said Helena's name. What in the world was wrong with her? Why was she so angry? "I don't talk to her. I simply ran into her and my day was officially ruined."Salamai growled. She glared at Anthony when he took away her cigarette. "Why quit smoking? I don't see why it matters."she said to him. She went to grab another out of the pack to see that it was empty. "Damn it.."she mumbled and tossed the empty pack down on the table.
"Well I am glad that you think she is cool. I just have a very different opinion on the matter."Salamai said quickly and tapped at the table mpatiently. She was in major need of a cigarette. Her nerves was tearing her apart.
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Post by Anthony Jameson on May 10, 2007 23:36:47 GMT -5
Anthony looked at her surprised, he hadn’t really seen her that mad in a long time. It was pretty obvious that she didn’t really get along at all with Helena. “Well I can see you don’t like her” he said smiling a bit, it was always fun to see her mad even though maybe this time she might explode out of her mind. Looking at her took out the pack of cigarettes he laughed a little bit “See it may be a sign. I don’t want Chase to be without a girlfriend,” he said smiling a little bit. He didn’t really cared too much about Chase not having a girlfriend he always was found around many girls, but what Anthony cared was about not being able to see her everyday.
“I don’t want you to die,” he said eating some food. Looking at her plate that was still full of food he pulled closer to her and looked at the table “You should eat too I don’t think you look good too skinny” he said jokingly. Maybe he cared too much about her, but well that was just something normal. He didn’t know what he would do without her.
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Post by Salamai von Hellan ♥ on May 10, 2007 23:45:15 GMT -5
"Clearly."Salamai said in a bored droan. She really really didn't like Helena. And she did not plan on changing her opinion at all. She stared at the empty pack and chewed at her bottom lip. She really needed a cigarette. "Well he is going to be without one if I don't smoke soon."she said to Anthony. "If I die then so be it."Salamai shrugged.
"I'm not hungry."
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Post by Anthony Jameson on May 10, 2007 23:58:56 GMT -5
Anthony smiled a little. “Well I guess it is obvious you are not in a good mood today” he said in a serious tone. He looked at the empty pack and stood up went to buy some cigarettes and gave them to her “Here you go if they are more important to you” he said kind of in a mad tone. She would never understand the point of why he cared so much about her, but still it wasn’t her problem, wasn’t it? He kept eating looking at her at times. Nothing was going to work out and maybe he just should leave everything like it was.
He just wanted to finish eating so that he could get out of there and get out of the tension that he was feeling inside of him. He loved her, but he wasn’t going to force her to love him back more when she was his best friend’s girlfriend. His life sucked and he couldn’t do nothing about it just lived it. He finished eating, paid for the food, and just stayed seated staring at Salamai maybe even waiting for her to say something even though he didn’t expected anything to come out of her mouth.
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Post by Salamai von Hellan ♥ on May 11, 2007 7:52:30 GMT -5
"Yea sorry I can't be happy go lucky...."Salamai muumbled under her breath. She wanted to be nice to Anthony, but she would end up doing or saying something that would leave her confused or hurt. When Anthony bought her another pack of cigarettes she felt bad. She simply looked at them and changed the subject, ignoring the nerves that seemed to be tearing her apart. She wouldn't need a cigarette so much if she wasn't nervous as hell.
"Listen, I know I am being a bitch, clearly. I will not apologize for it. But I will apologize for the other night. I know it hurt you when I never answered when you told me... Yea well I know that silence hurts more than a straight up answer so I was uh wondering if I coulds try again?"Salamai waited for his answer. Her hands were getting shaky, so she hit them underneath the table.
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Post by Anthony Jameson on May 11, 2007 19:21:58 GMT -5
Anthony just kept looking at her. He didn’t know what to think. Surely she was right about not acting nice, but well maybe it just hasn’t been her day at all. He kind of tried to understand her if she wasn’t having a great time, but still she wasn’t nice. He watched the cigarettes, why wasn’t she smoking? If she had the cigarettes in front of her it was kind of weird. He listened to her apology of the other night and laughed a little “You don’t have to apologize. I just say three stupid question that I don’t think had a meaning to you,” he said with a neutral look.
He looked at the table and gave her a little smile “Try what again?” he asked confused “I think I do would have preferred a no than that silence that you kept. I knew I shouldn’t have said it, but I just said what I feel.”
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Post by Salamai von Hellan ♥ on May 12, 2007 10:04:02 GMT -5
"Well it... It could have meant..."Salamai began, but was too nervous to finish. She could feel her cheeks redden and her heart began to beat way too fast like it always did when she was around Anthony. She listened to Anthony explain that he was only saying what he felt the other night. "So... You wanted to hear "no" as an answer?? I mean... You weren't expecting me to say it back?"she asked in a almost shaky voice. She wanted to answer that question so badly with a yes, but what was she supposed to do?
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Post by Anthony Jameson on May 12, 2007 18:00:03 GMT -5
Anthony looked at her getting some kind of mad at her. She wasn’t ready for this and he didn’t know if he was ready to hear her answer, but he couldn’t help, but feel sad. “I don’t know what I expected, but I am sure that I would have preferred a no as an answer than that silence that night. Because that silence that was there made me realize that you are not ready and it make me feel like dumb,” he said looking at the table. “Look I know this is hard for you, but it is hard for me too. Chase is my best friend and I never thought I could do this to him and I don’t want to hurt him. I am sorry for what I said I know it mixed it all up, but I can’t change it.” he said looking at her eyes, he loved her so much, but he knew his love for her is not possible.
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Post by Salamai von Hellan ♥ on May 12, 2007 18:56:03 GMT -5
"Well, Anthony, I couldn't answer. I don't think I can now either.... Because... My answer is.. Oh what the hell.... Well I shouldn't feel this way about you, but everything reminds me of you. It's like I can't get your name out of my head and I know it is so wrong. I cant help it. I'm just so confused. I love Chase, but at the same time I love you. And I don't know what to do. And please don't walk away this time, because I am lying my soul out on the line and I don't know if I can handle it if you just get up and walk away...."Salamai said. She was so confused. She could feel her face heat up and her eyes began to rim with tears. There she was again. She was acting like a silly little girl again. She chewed at her bottom lip as hard as possible.
"And the fact that you are Chase's best friend hardly even matters right now. It's screwed up enough that I can't love Chase the way I am supposed to..."
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