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Post by Anthony Jameson on May 12, 2007 20:00:51 GMT -5
Anthony looked up at her. She was feeling the same as he was and he felt guilty for that. All of her confusion and suffer was because of him. He just loved her didn’t want to hurt her. He felt sorry for him, but more for her. He was just being unfair with her. He knew he should do something, but had no idea of what he could do. Confusion filled his mind when he heard her say that he loved Chase and him. He couldn’t understand how was that, but couldn’t blame her. Looking at her, the tears coming down her cheek made him wanted to kiss her, but he couldn’t. He cleaned her cheek and try to smile “I am not going to walk away” he said looking at her eyes, he wanted to go, but couldn’t leave her there like this. “I am sorry for this. I am sorry for this feeling that hurts you so much” he said feeling his eyes watered, but he wasn’t going to cry. He couldn’t cry.
“I know you love Chase. You have always been in love with her and I am just an intrusion that got into your relationship with him, but it wasn’t intentionally please believe me I don’t even know when I started to fall in love with you, but am just going to say that having you in my life have been the most wonderful thing that would ever happen.” He said blushing a little bit. He was a bad friend. How could he do this to his best friend, but he couldn’t shut that feeling anymore.
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Post by Salamai von Hellan ♥ on May 12, 2007 20:53:39 GMT -5
"I love and hate this feeling at the same time. I love the way I feel when I think about you, but I hate the fact that I can't have you... I guess it is just unfair"Salamai said to Anthony. She had the deepest urge to just reach over the table and hold on to him and never let him go, but she knew she shouldn't. A few people were now trying to get in there business and Salamai wouldn't have that. "What are you looking at?"she asked a few girls from school coldly.
"This would be so much easier if I could just stop loving you, but I can't and I don't know what to do."she said. She wiped away a few tears that fell from her eyes, embarrassed that she was crying.
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Post by Anthony Jameson on May 12, 2007 21:27:35 GMT -5
Anthony listened to her. It was kind of hard, but he was there trying to fix what he had begun. “I don’t blame you. I blame myself. I shouldn’t have told you what I felt. I mean we are both in the same situation I think, but maybe things would work out better if we just forget about all” he said feeling his heart beating fast and breaking into peaces. He didn’t wanted to forget, but it was the best thing to do. He didn’t paid attention to the people around. He didn’t cared about the people around.
“You have to stop loving me because you and me won’t go together never at least not when Chase still loves you” he said cursing himself. He felt like dying he couldn’t believe what he was saying, but he cared too much about Chase and he wasn’t going to hurt him even if that meant Anthony’s unhappiness. “You love Chase and Chase loves you, there is no Anthony there and will never be” he said looking at her. He wanted to run, runaway from all this pain, from all this confusion, but his legs just couldn’t move and will never move even when he wanted them to move.
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Post by Salamai von Hellan ♥ on May 12, 2007 21:59:07 GMT -5
Salamai picked up the pack of cigarettes, not noticing that she was about to smoke. She lit the cigarette and hid her tear stained face with her free hand. "Yea I guess we should forget...."she mumbled. She could feel her heart breaking into shards of nothing. "And the fact that there will never be an Anthony in the picture is what.. Is what is torturing me.."her hands were shaky and she was already finishing off the cigarette she had lit only a few minutes ago. It was apparent that she was pretty tore up.
"Well at least we both have someone. I have Chase. You have Helena. Maybe you should just give her chance. She reallly likes you and you two can actually be together."she said. Her voice was full of despair and anger when she said this. "I mean, you two could actually be happy with each other. You don't have to worry about getting caught......"
Salamai wanted to walk away. She wanted to cry like she had never cried. She wanted to make it all go away.... To end it all.
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Post by Anthony Jameson on May 12, 2007 22:14:09 GMT -5
Anthony got somewhat annoyed when he saw her starting to smoke. He had bought her the cigarettes, but thought she forgot about them. He kept looking at the table. He couldn’t watch her smoke. Watch how some paper might take her away from him forever. He wanted to keep her for him forever, but he couldn’t even get to the beginning. “Don’t worry I won’t bother you with this anymore” he said still looking at the table, but raised his head when he heard Helena’s name. What does Helena have to do in the conversation? “Yeah she is a nice girl and cute” he said feeling kind of awkward. He did liked Helena, but as a friend. He would never be able to feel something more for her.
His head started to spin, his stomach started to hurt, he wasn’t feeling good and he would never be good. He stood up and started walking away, maybe this was the best thing to do. He just walked away without a look, a kiss, or a goodbye…
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Post by Salamai von Hellan ♥ on May 12, 2007 22:24:15 GMT -5
Salamai said nothing as Anthony got up. What could she say? What could she do? Once he walked off, she let the tears she had tried to hold back run own her cheeks freely. She made no noise, she simply stood up and walked away from that table. Leaving the whole pack of cigarettes and a five dollar tip. She pushed past the people that were in her way, still crying. There was no way she could hold it back.She would have to get over it all eventually.
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